Someone said :
Give yourself a break, floggg. As you say, you've come a long way. We all have this journey to make any many of us are still near the beginning.
From what you have said, you've gone through a lot of stages very quickly - much quicker than I have anyway. So you are bound to feel a bit disoriented as each stage takes a while to get used to. All this comes with it's own stresses.
Sometimes I get stressed at the pace that things change at, if I can't keep my emotional health on an even keel while everything is changing around me then I feel like I'm losing control of it all.
There's no time-table for this journey. It took me a long time to realise that.
Im probably making things sound worse than they are. As I said I think I have come along way and am generally happy with how things are going for me. I honestly feel so much better about things over the last few months. As a whole, it's so much easier lately than it was when I was lying to myself.
I guess just needed to express my thoughts on this just to work through them. Now that I figured this one out it's not really so much of any issue anymore!