My view on drugs today is very different than it was years ago.
I started smoking weed and drinking at 13. This progressed to painkillers and benzos,e's and coke. Then heroin came into the picture - something I swore I would never touch.
For the past 5 years my problems got a lot worse. I was a daily user of alcohol,weed, benzos and heroin while holding down a full time government job. I am estranged from my family, nearly lost my house and job. Anger was a huge problem and had a few assault charges.
I came off everything 6 months ago cold turkey which was a very stupid thing to do - ended up in hospital with seizures. All the time working a full time government job. My colleagues had no clue. They still don't. I had to go to my boss as I've been so sick from withdrawels and anxiety and paranoia. I get time off from work to receive outpatient treatment and see a psychotherapist - himself a reformed addict.
I'm 6 months clean and sober and its only in the past 2 weeks I can sleep and eat and don't feel half as distressed.
Obviously people get into this state for a reason. Thats why its so important to talk. Which is very difficult in itself with the shame and stigma involved.
I do hope for a brighter future