Oh yeah, sorry, not necessarily I suppose, but maybe just having less contact with "kindred spirits"... It might be fine just existing, even having a social group and acceptance, but I'd need people that shared the other, gay, part of me. But aside from the social aspect I do feel the threat of someone saying something ignorant or just a look, would weigh mych more heavily on me down the country. Actually that's a big problem with the cotntry, gay or straight, there's not enough choice. I know if I go out in portlaoise whether I'm gay, straight, scumbag, normal, mainstream or alternative, if I want to go to a club I'm gonna end up in the same places as everyone else. I might have loads of cool, open minded friends but yet I have to mingle with ignorant scumbags who might abuse me.